黑仔...

上次換完電話後,一直都覺得粉紅色其實還不錯,我還沒有那麼"忌紅",誰知道...

*換完電話第二天就開始大感冒(不知道原因)... 還出現了很久很久都沒有出現過的失聲!!!!!!!
*生病了沒去上課,結果課上小測...
*上課後在回家的途中,書包的拉鍊突然爆開... 幸好東西沒丟... 不過書包要買新的...
*生平第一次抽扭蛋抽到兩個一模一樣的... 是snoopy手機袋...
*第一次給媽媽買了聖誕禮物,竟然回家後才發現那東西裡面有薰衣草(媽媽會過敏)...

還有一些一些小事情,現在忘了... 不過可能是我心理作用吧...

今天去找手機袋的時候,順便想對我的ipod nano好一點,於是買了這樣一個可愛的東西... 本來想買小白兔,可是我的ipod太舊了,是第一代的,所以用不到小白兔的第二代保護套... 不過這個貓貓的也不錯... 還是這一期愛的黃色!!

新電話...

昨天去了利基換電話... 本來一直都在用sony ericsson P1i,可是用了不到3個月,各式各樣的問題就出現了... 例如:
1. 接不到長途電話 (尤其是在關鍵的時候, 不過很有可能是ctm的問題...)
2. 一天總會有好幾個時候沒有信號 (在家裡/學校/銀行都有過這樣的情況,而我手中另外一部電話卻信號正常)
3. 通電話的時候斷線,接電話變了掛電話 (明明按著touchpad左邊那個接電話鍵,卻發現變了按拒絕來電)...
4. 常常想拿出電話拍照,那個照相機功能都要load超長時間才能用... 那天想拍下sampras的大頭照,接過因為電話太慢,大頭照變了遠照,差點連sampras的樣子也拍不到...
5. 電話的聲音質量很差... 以前在K800i很可愛的鈴聲,用在P1i的時候變得很沙啞...

熟悉我的人都知道我不是一個隨便換電話的人,可是這個電話真的讓我很懊惱... 那天在蘋果日報看到的那些sony ericsson電話送hello kitty閃燈座,所以就打電話去問問那些電話的型號和價錢,還問了如果把電話賣掉會有多少錢... 結果發現,那個用了不到3個月,買回來的時候要HKD$4680的P1i,回收價是HKD$2200多一點... 雖然很心疼,可是我用越久它越貶值,所以還是覺得快快把它賣掉更好...

昨天終於有時間(其實是爸爸終於有時間陪我)去看... 看到w580i就很喜歡... 那個賣電話的姐姐用後評語也很不錯,所以就決定了... 價錢很合理 (才HKD$2500+,雖然不是3G),只是它有三個顏色,不知道選哪一個好... 好不容易,經過很長時間的內心掙扎,終於衝破了多年"忌紅"的心理障礙,選了新推出的粉紅色... 很可愛很可愛,希望用了以後順風順水 :P

不過,打算賣掉我的舊電話的時候,才知道在短短的一個星期,我的P1i的回收價跌了差不多HKD$400,真的很"肉痛"... 舊的電話只以HKD$1900成交了... 還要補了幾百塊才能換電話... 不過算了,換了就換了,起碼現在可以拿著電話到處聽歌到處拍照,也不用擔心電話太大讓手袋沒有空位放NDS,那就ok了...

好了,要在用用我的電話才能知道會不會比P1i有所改善... 不過從拍照的角度來看,算是不錯了 :) 希望能用久一點吧...

圖片:
w580i,懶得找我的canon為電話拍照,在網上隨便找個好了...









今天在macau tower看那個da vinci展覽其中一個展品"chamber of mirrors"裡面用新電話拍的照... 那個房間有8面鏡子,在鏡子包圍下,你可以看到你的身體的任何部分,並且看到"千千萬萬"(正確說是無限個)自己的倒影... 因為要遷就手機的拍攝角度,所以拍不出那麼多個不同角度的,會縮的越來越小的倒影... 可是還是拍的不錯...

edit:如果細心一點看那張倒影圖,會看到其實我把頭髮捲了... 哈哈,是那種用電髮捲的臨時曲髮...雖然做了以後那一天覺得很老氣,不太好看... 可是過了一天,頭髮看上去自然了,樣子也比較活潑...家裡對我的曲髮形象也有不錯的反應,所以christmas應該還會再做一次...











還有shrek版的pop art mona lisa...

vincenzo and the black eyed peas...

i fell in love with vincenzo the first time i saw him at the venetian... even though he left for venice the past 2 weeks, i have been thinking of him... and now, he has finally come home with me... he sits on my printer singing "o sole mio" whenever i hold (press) his palm, with full actions and movement... and i press his palm whenever i want to shut out my mom's voice and the chinese opera coming from downstairs... such a relief to my pathetic life, haha...




well, i got him today when i went to the venetian to get me some shoes... turns out my mom got the discount card and so i bought 1 pair of boots and 1 pair of pretty high heels for half-price... and then i just can't leave my vincenzo singing alone at the counter anymore, so i brought him home too... haha, and i think for such a good singer, he is quite cheap...

speaking of singers, the Black Eyed Peas concert was great!!! i know im such a sucker for concerts, but this was so fun!!! screaming and jumping and losing my voice this morning somehow felt like a release... a release from what i can't tell, maybe the latent stress and nerves from living with my mom... but anyways, it was 400 patacas well spent... haha... if i have to say something bad, then maybe the only thing missing is a certain handsome guy by my side... but still, life goes on... the show must go on... hope i can get free tickets for the beyonce concert next week... can't wait...

閑情賦(節錄)

語文課的時候,老師提到這首陶淵明寫的<閑情賦>... 哦,才知道,這才是情詩哦...

願在衣而為領，承華首之餘芳；悲羅襟之宵離，怨秋夜之未央！
願在裳而為帶，束窈窕之纖身；嗟溫涼之異氣，或脫故而服新！
願在發而為澤，刷玄鬢於頹肩；悲佳人之屢沐，從白水而枯煎！
願在眉而為黛，隨瞻視以閑揚；悲脂粉之尚鮮，或取毀于華妝！
願在莞而火席，安弱體於三秋；悲文茵之代禦，方經年而見求！
願在絲而為履，附素足以周旋；悲行止之有節，空委棄 於床前！
願在晝而為影，常依形而西東；悲高樹之多蔭，慨有時而不同！
願在夜而為燭，照玉容於兩楹；悲扶桑之舒光，奄滅景而藏明！
願在竹而為扇，含淒飆於柔 握；悲白露之晨零，顧襟袖以緬邈！
願在木而為桐，作膝上之鳴琴；悲樂極而哀來，終推我而輟音！

有生以來第一次沒有被古詩歌悶死... 陶淵明先生真的厲害! 趙婷老師也很厲害!!

就這樣一個多月了...

一個多月沒寫blog了... 這個月裡面,其實也發生了不少(以我清閒的生活來說), 不過就是沒有想過要update罷了...

24歲了,感覺真的有點老了... 動不動就累了,晚上睡少一點早上起床不到一個小時就喊累... 不過,當帥帥來看我的時候,怎麼累我還是死撐了,哈哈... 嗯,在這裡先謝謝他,給了我那麼愉快的幾天... 那幾天感覺有點像做夢, 一是因為太睏了,二是因為真的想也沒想過他真的會來... 四天的時間,我都早早的起床,晚晚的睡,真的是超級努力超級累... 不過還算是值得吧?! 我不知道以後會怎樣,可是我已賺到回憶了... 真的謝謝你來了...

哈哈,還有,這個月開學了... 每天只是坐車到學校的時間已經要大概兩小時了... 所以到學校的時候,通常都是在一個暈車的狀態,超想睡的,所以每天都不怎麼想上課... 真的懷念有帥帥陪我到學校的日子... (因為有他在我就常常有藉口打的上學了,有時候還不用我的錢呢...) 不過以後也不能這樣了,我還得乖乖上課去...

回想起那幾天的一幕一幕,好想念那種日子哦... 煙花,西餐,賭場,香港... 24歲的我,不該再發白日夢了... 還是得想想怎麼樣才不會像這樣每天很累得過日子...

for all my cantonese speaking girlfriends...

hope u guys have some fun reading about LoGuPoLand... all comments and suggestions are welcome... =)

babo...

這個是babo... 他是我的公仔家族的最新成員!! 今天才剛坐完飛機,到達我的家!! 哈哈,他是外國一個叫"uglydolls"的品牌的... 我以前看中的叫moxy,tray和peaco, 可是今天拿到了babo,發現還是他比較可愛 =) 嗯嗯,帥帥說看到他就想起了我和阿闊... 真的有點不爽,被人在我生日的時候說我像一個"醜娃娃"... (哈哈,雖然我們都是哨牙的... 其實,大家都覺得我跟任何哨牙的東西相像 =/) 我們真的像嗎?

不過,有生日禮物已經很好了 =) 另外也謝謝趙大小姐送我crabtree & evelyn的rosewater hand cream... 香香的... 謝謝!!

無聊的一句...

H和J談戀愛... 從一開始就互相覺得大家心很近... 可是到了後來,H和J才慢慢發現,他們中間永遠都隔著一個I... 他們自己永遠都是他們中間的問題... 跟自己最親密,最相近的,只有I...

thanks my dears...

Thank you my dears!! These past few days, have really been discouraged and weak but I am grateful you guys are here for me and gave me all the love I need... A lot of things have happened and I am not allowed to show a weak face most of the time, in order not to get mom and dad worrying... But its hard to keep a happy face every single minute and I am so grateful to have people whom I can retreat to and who I can trust to have some guidance and cheering up from... You guys made me realize that somehow I was such a fool or maybe even a bitch... Thanks for being truthful and being kind to me...

Thank you Sandra, for making time to high tea today as a celebration... Sorry we didn't go sing k...

Thank you Chidong~ First, for the Dreamcatcher you got from Canada... It is sparkling on my neck right now... I never told u about the nightmares I have but you got me the perfect thing!!! We sure are a great match, haha... And secondly, thanks for all the maple stuff... The mini tea box and the candy... I thought it would be maple nougats but tea is much better because it doesn't make me fat at all... I was gonna try the candy but it is so precious (I only got 2!!) I'll leave it until my big day... And thirdly, thanks for driving me around today in the rain... Your car is almost the best place to have a chat... I just can't stop looking out of the window I know, haha...

Thank you Lawrence and Katie, for planning to come... I am so looking forward to it but I'm glad you guys still remembered me and will make the trip soon (hopefully?)... Too bad there is a typhoon and there are no rooms... And for the MTR Hello Kitty!!! Haha, it is so cute I want it so bad now...

Thank you Yuki~ For talking to me on MSN... I know it is so cliche but I really believe it is a deed of God to bring you to me on that day... And you know, things haven't changed since that day but I realized rather than be sad about it, I should be grateful for having family and friends beside me... God has it all planned out... I should learn from you... And yes, this is the fourth birthday already... And you asked for my address so I think you are sending me something?! Hehe, thank you so much in advance!! God bless...

Oh, and thank you Angie for getting me something, and asking Alanis to bring it back... I miss your cooking, and of course Mr Shan's grilled veggies and pasta... And I miss "water cook fish"...
And Liz, thanks for waking up in the afternoon after so little sleep... You rest more and we can celebrate after you quit working in "hell"... And when will you introduce me to all those guys? You got the best one, right? So let me choose from the rest!! And don't bother giving me anything this year, I just want to see you!!!!!

Nah, I got so many friends!! I can never express all the gratitude... I love you guys!!!

hot hot hot!!!

why is it so hot in macau?? the tempearture's not so high but i feel so dizzy at my gran's place with no air-con but a fan... melting... is it the weather or is it me??

50 Girly secrets every guy should know...

今天中午跟婆仔吃中飯,到了白馬巷某‘中日合資’（就是一個日本男士跟他的澳門太太所開的）日本燒餅店（我很喜歡的okonomiyaki喔！！）那燒餅真的很不錯，只不過那個‘甜蜜蜜咖哩飯’真的很無heart！早知道就不那麼貪心，只要燒餅不要套餐好了！吃完之後去了宏達看書。看到一本由一個叫“帶銀公主”的香港女生所寫的書，叫50個女生想男生知道的心事

本來一位由是那種日本／台灣的小繪本，打開後才發現是香港人寫（畫）的。裡面除了有很可愛的插畫外，還有很多很有意思的文字。很想買很想買，但是一想到家裡還有五十公斤的雜物還沒開封，就立刻打消了那個念頭。還是等我收拾好書櫃才買吧！不過裡面的畫和文字都很可愛，哈哈，而且我也很羨慕那個作者有一個這麼疼愛他的老公。看著她的website，真的覺得她像公主一般幸福。很羨慕哦，為甚麼別人的愛情看起來就那麼美滿幸福呢？我也很努力我的拍拖事業阿，可是好像我還是差了點甚麼．．．只是想知道帥帥的心到底是怎麼想的．．．到底有沒有一本叫"50 Boy-ly secrets every girl should know"呢？

朋友子東去加拿大已經好幾天了，我都沒有她的消息，大概是看到男朋友太興奮忘了我們吧？！希望她這是幾天過得很開心，很值得．．．沒有甚麼比看到我身邊的人都快快樂樂更讓我欣慰了。

on another note，那個princess diane跟我一樣是超級harry potter fans喔！我跟她都有一些相同的疑問：
1.在King's Cross那個chapter，dumbledore和harry旁邊有一個在哭的嬰兒，那是甚麼意思啊？那個是voldemort的horcrux嗎？
2.sirius在第五集掉進了那個veil的後面，那個時候只是說不知道sirius會到了甚麼地方或被怎樣了，但是第七集的後部說到了resurrection stone喚回了james等死了的人的靈魂，當中有sirius。那是說sirius死了嗎？那為甚麼第五集的時候就不說他死了？
3.Aunt Petunia一家最後怎樣了？好不容易解釋了dudley最後對harry改觀了，最後說送走他們一後又不交代？！
4.最後harry和voldemort的大戰,voldemort用avada kedavra殺死harry，harry用的是expelliarmus.雖說harry是elder wand的真正主人,可是不代表那elder wand會backfire吧？畢竟avada kedavra不是harry說的，所以那個咒語是應該不算數吧？

哦，還有很多問題，現在想不起來，到底是我看得太快，還是我領悟力太差呢？

cheer's poses...

waited for so long, finally got cheer chen's dvd+cd package... finally they have asian edition and i can get it in macau... haha, so touching while i watch it... reminds me of the last time where i stood for 2 whole hours at her concert 2 years ago in macau... it is really so moving...

and i finally got broadband... one less reason to miss beijing... haha, but im not sure if i can bt all the time... let's see...

give me a break...

back to macau for a while... so far it has been the normal home life... as in its really humid and hot, with a lot of time walking on the streets going nowhere... and then parents are as usual whining and whining about everything i do or not do... after 6 years of solitude, i guess i couldnt handle it... i want a break...

thanks to my friends for giving me great support... it is with u guys that i get my occasional break from the whining and i am so happy to be with all of u again... though i lost contact with a lot of high school friends along the way, and i dont really have that many people to meet when i am back here, it still feels so nice i still got the 2 or 3 of u to hang out with...

i am so devastated... i guess i have taken everything for granted... all along i thought i have been great, i thought i have given in so much... but in the end i guess i didn't do such a great job... i don't know what to do these few days... i can't talk to my friends and i have my parents behind me all the time and i don't even have a time to be sad... i want to be strong and be happy and smily when i see anyone but i can't... why did it happen so suddenly... if only i could turn back time...

i want this cake...

aside from packing and doing math problems, i have been going out quite a bit these few days... wandered into bread talk the other day and saw that they have hello kitty products now... i want this hello kitty cake for my birthday ah... why don't they have hello kitty cakes and bread in macau?








and as i was packing, i found that i have never took a picture with my elmo backpack... hehe... so i took one before i put in in the post carton and mail it back home...

i want this cake...

aside from packing and doing math problems, i have been going out quite a bit these few days... wandered into bread talk the other day and saw that they have hello kitty products now... i want this hello kitty cake for my birthday ah... why don't they have hello kitty cakes and bread in macau?








and as i was packing, i found that i have never took a picture with my elmo backpack... hehe... so i took one before i put in in the post carton and mail it back home...

Peace

Six years ago, I made a very determined decision to leave my home and come to Beijing. Six years passed, and I made a much more determined decision to leave Beijing and go back home. To all those who think it is a wrong thing to do, I appreciate all your suggestions. To all who think I am a loser, I understand where you are coming from. To all who understood me and supported me, I appreciate all you support and I am really thankful.

I just want to say it has been a very rough time. It is not something that got out of my panic attack. It is something that I have thought about in the past few years, but have not the courage and determination to face. And now I finally have prepared myself to go on and bring it up. It is a heart-breaking moment for all those who have expectations of me, especially my parents and myself. The strength I have to gather in order to stay calm enough to talk to my family and explain to them and make them understand is tremendous. It is not easy. But I know inside me that it is the right thing to do. So let me make peace with myself.

Maybe one day, I may be proved wrong. Maybe someday, what you all think is going to come true. I might be better off if I haven't decided to do what I do now. But at least I will not regret when I look back at what I did. I have already made the best decision my little brain can afford. And that is what makes this my life -- the choices that I make. And I am not living the life my parents or my relatives expect of me. It is a life entirely mine.

To those that really mattered to me, I understand your concerns. I know it looked all wrong from your points of view. I know you all think I am too emotional and I am weak. But I am the strongest I have been in years. All the strength and courage I used to tell my parents and to face the world. I am even prepared to deal with the "see-what-i've-told-you" things you are going to say if you are proved right. So let me do this and support me. I have never felt "right-er" in my life. It is decided upon, no way back. As I said, now I am really at peace with myself. So let it be what it is meant to be. Thank you...

God bless me...

zub...

saw this note at lush the other night... says "zub" is closing down... only been to that place once and that was really a long time ago but i still remember a lot from that one time... the picture is unusually clear to me... feels a little sad about this little place (so weird cuz i dont even remember this place before i saw this)...

air-con turned fridge...

at around nine something tonight, i came back from lawrence's room to find a loud roaring noise inside my own room... i opened the door and i heard the noise coming from the air-con... so i opened the air-lid and this is what i found... my air-con turned into a fridge... there's ice all over the dust filter and the when i pulled one filter out of its slot, everything underneath is covered with ice too... seems like my air-con likes to be a fridge freezer more than an air-con tonight...


above is a close-up of the ice... and below is me with the frosted dust filter...


and now even though the ice melted and i replaced everything, the air-con wont work... i need to sleep without it... and then i can't straighten my legs on my bed because water is dripping from it at one end of my bed... i put buckets and towels there so the water won't go anywhere else... hm... hellish ordeal...

and thanks to lawrence for not panicking and helping deal with the whole thing... my bed will be swamped if not for u.... thanks...

想告訴你我的所有...

聽著許哲佩的新歌"德國下雪了"... 那歌詞真的是浪漫... 訴說著兩個人暫時分開,男的要去旅行,承諾會為女的帶來最感動的驚喜... 就在德國下著雪的一天,男的用攝錄機拍下了最美的雪景,帶回去和女的分享... 就像是要把自己經歷的,變成一種共同的經歷... 聽著聽著,感同身受得有點想掉眼淚...

雖然跟你不是短暫的分開,而是一種沒有限期的分開,可是我還是想要把我所經歷的一切,與你一起分享... 就算是最微不足道的事,也想你知道,也想你能感受到我所感受的... 所以,最近除了日常的"新聞報導",我還養成了隨時拍照的習慣... 無論吃飯或逛街,有趣的事情通通都想拍下來讓你看... 讓你知道,讓你和我一同經歷...

很努力的想把我的所有經歷告訴你,照片,電話,我一點都不吝嗇... 希望你都能領略到,我有多麼想念有你在身邊的感覺...

zuzu #2

i was playing with my camera phone today and i found out these funny frames i can use on my pictures... so i took this hilarious and meaningful but somewhat weird and disturbing picture of my zuzu... the meaning of the picture is to illustrate who i am -- a piggie personality under a rabbity appearance... but the picture looks really disturbing... hope im not as disturbing and weird as the picture...