50 Girly secrets every guy should know...

今天中午跟婆仔吃中飯,到了白馬巷某‘中日合資’（就是一個日本男士跟他的澳門太太所開的）日本燒餅店（我很喜歡的okonomiyaki喔！！）那燒餅真的很不錯，只不過那個‘甜蜜蜜咖哩飯’真的很無heart！早知道就不那麼貪心，只要燒餅不要套餐好了！吃完之後去了宏達看書。看到一本由一個叫“帶銀公主”的香港女生所寫的書，叫50個女生想男生知道的心事

本來一位由是那種日本／台灣的小繪本，打開後才發現是香港人寫（畫）的。裡面除了有很可愛的插畫外，還有很多很有意思的文字。很想買很想買，但是一想到家裡還有五十公斤的雜物還沒開封，就立刻打消了那個念頭。還是等我收拾好書櫃才買吧！不過裡面的畫和文字都很可愛，哈哈，而且我也很羨慕那個作者有一個這麼疼愛他的老公。看著她的website，真的覺得她像公主一般幸福。很羨慕哦，為甚麼別人的愛情看起來就那麼美滿幸福呢？我也很努力我的拍拖事業阿，可是好像我還是差了點甚麼．．．只是想知道帥帥的心到底是怎麼想的．．．到底有沒有一本叫"50 Boy-ly secrets every girl should know"呢？

朋友子東去加拿大已經好幾天了，我都沒有她的消息，大概是看到男朋友太興奮忘了我們吧？！希望她這是幾天過得很開心，很值得．．．沒有甚麼比看到我身邊的人都快快樂樂更讓我欣慰了。

on another note，那個princess diane跟我一樣是超級harry potter fans喔！我跟她都有一些相同的疑問：
1.在King's Cross那個chapter，dumbledore和harry旁邊有一個在哭的嬰兒，那是甚麼意思啊？那個是voldemort的horcrux嗎？
2.sirius在第五集掉進了那個veil的後面，那個時候只是說不知道sirius會到了甚麼地方或被怎樣了，但是第七集的後部說到了resurrection stone喚回了james等死了的人的靈魂，當中有sirius。那是說sirius死了嗎？那為甚麼第五集的時候就不說他死了？
3.Aunt Petunia一家最後怎樣了？好不容易解釋了dudley最後對harry改觀了，最後說送走他們一後又不交代？！
4.最後harry和voldemort的大戰,voldemort用avada kedavra殺死harry，harry用的是expelliarmus.雖說harry是elder wand的真正主人,可是不代表那elder wand會backfire吧？畢竟avada kedavra不是harry說的，所以那個咒語是應該不算數吧？

哦，還有很多問題，現在想不起來，到底是我看得太快，還是我領悟力太差呢？

cheer's poses...

waited for so long, finally got cheer chen's dvd+cd package... finally they have asian edition and i can get it in macau... haha, so touching while i watch it... reminds me of the last time where i stood for 2 whole hours at her concert 2 years ago in macau... it is really so moving...

and i finally got broadband... one less reason to miss beijing... haha, but im not sure if i can bt all the time... let's see...

give me a break...

back to macau for a while... so far it has been the normal home life... as in its really humid and hot, with a lot of time walking on the streets going nowhere... and then parents are as usual whining and whining about everything i do or not do... after 6 years of solitude, i guess i couldnt handle it... i want a break...

thanks to my friends for giving me great support... it is with u guys that i get my occasional break from the whining and i am so happy to be with all of u again... though i lost contact with a lot of high school friends along the way, and i dont really have that many people to meet when i am back here, it still feels so nice i still got the 2 or 3 of u to hang out with...

i am so devastated... i guess i have taken everything for granted... all along i thought i have been great, i thought i have given in so much... but in the end i guess i didn't do such a great job... i don't know what to do these few days... i can't talk to my friends and i have my parents behind me all the time and i don't even have a time to be sad... i want to be strong and be happy and smily when i see anyone but i can't... why did it happen so suddenly... if only i could turn back time...

i want this cake...

aside from packing and doing math problems, i have been going out quite a bit these few days... wandered into bread talk the other day and saw that they have hello kitty products now... i want this hello kitty cake for my birthday ah... why don't they have hello kitty cakes and bread in macau?








and as i was packing, i found that i have never took a picture with my elmo backpack... hehe... so i took one before i put in in the post carton and mail it back home...

i want this cake...

aside from packing and doing math problems, i have been going out quite a bit these few days... wandered into bread talk the other day and saw that they have hello kitty products now... i want this hello kitty cake for my birthday ah... why don't they have hello kitty cakes and bread in macau?








and as i was packing, i found that i have never took a picture with my elmo backpack... hehe... so i took one before i put in in the post carton and mail it back home...

Peace

Six years ago, I made a very determined decision to leave my home and come to Beijing. Six years passed, and I made a much more determined decision to leave Beijing and go back home. To all those who think it is a wrong thing to do, I appreciate all your suggestions. To all who think I am a loser, I understand where you are coming from. To all who understood me and supported me, I appreciate all you support and I am really thankful.

I just want to say it has been a very rough time. It is not something that got out of my panic attack. It is something that I have thought about in the past few years, but have not the courage and determination to face. And now I finally have prepared myself to go on and bring it up. It is a heart-breaking moment for all those who have expectations of me, especially my parents and myself. The strength I have to gather in order to stay calm enough to talk to my family and explain to them and make them understand is tremendous. It is not easy. But I know inside me that it is the right thing to do. So let me make peace with myself.

Maybe one day, I may be proved wrong. Maybe someday, what you all think is going to come true. I might be better off if I haven't decided to do what I do now. But at least I will not regret when I look back at what I did. I have already made the best decision my little brain can afford. And that is what makes this my life -- the choices that I make. And I am not living the life my parents or my relatives expect of me. It is a life entirely mine.

To those that really mattered to me, I understand your concerns. I know it looked all wrong from your points of view. I know you all think I am too emotional and I am weak. But I am the strongest I have been in years. All the strength and courage I used to tell my parents and to face the world. I am even prepared to deal with the "see-what-i've-told-you" things you are going to say if you are proved right. So let me do this and support me. I have never felt "right-er" in my life. It is decided upon, no way back. As I said, now I am really at peace with myself. So let it be what it is meant to be. Thank you...

God bless me...

zub...

saw this note at lush the other night... says "zub" is closing down... only been to that place once and that was really a long time ago but i still remember a lot from that one time... the picture is unusually clear to me... feels a little sad about this little place (so weird cuz i dont even remember this place before i saw this)...