2 more days...

2 more days and then back to beijing again... i have come back for almost a month but it feels like i am only back for 2 weeks... i am not very depressed but i do feel a little at loss because i didnt get to use my time to the full... not enough good food to get me fat, haha... the past few days, the family agenda have kept me up until late at night and used up almost all of my time... i am so tired with such a packed time-table... last night i slept for less than 6 hours again and i feel like i almost slept in the casino blackjack machine area... with most of my relatives starting work tomorrow, i hope i can get a little rest in the last few days... no more casinos at least... haha...

aiya... suddenly i dont want to go back to beijing... i am still in need of vacation free time... i don't want to do housework at all... dim suen ah...

first day of the year of the piggy

kung hei fat choy!! happy chinese new year!!

i should be very happy in chinese new year, esp when today is the first piggy day... but there are bad times ah, and i am very caught up in the bad moods right now... i dont want to bitch about my relatives but they really make me very very upset... they are taking me for granted so bad... it is chinese new year and i cried... not a very good piggy start for me...

and im frustrated cuz the phone connection is always so bad i cant have a very smooth conversation with my sweet apple ah... im sorry i have been bad-tempered about recent happenings and i am not very pleasant...

but there are good times too... at least i won in dice and tombola!!! yay!! alrighty, time for my shower...

St. Valentine's Day 2007

february 14 ~ st. valentine's day... this year, it has been quite a busy day... but i get to have dinner with my dear friends, and deliver an early bday gift to my dear liz-jing... i love u too ah baby... haha, i really hope u can find ur frog prince very soon...

haha, i got valentine's day gifts too... my mom and dad gave me the first thing on my v.day wishlist this year ~ swarovski valentine's day collection 07 kris bear!! haha, it is so pretty i took a couple of pictures of it, but they're all blurry :( and then i got a nice gift (chocolate+socks=tim tim mud mud, so thoughtful!!!) from chidong... haha, and also thanks to chidong, if not i will need to go hungry again tonight (not to mention lonely)... and i got myself hello kitty chocolates, wakaka...

mmm, it is already very good this year... i got gifts and i got phone-calls... thanks so much my dears...

ps. i really really hope my wish will come true ah~

上海

這兩天都在香港,逛街吃東西買衣服買書... 今天黃昏,坐著的士從銅鑼灣到上環港澳碼頭準備回家的時候,看到中環某大廈上面的一幅大型廣告,讓我的心有一種七上八下的感覺... 那是上海灘(時裝店?)的新廣告,有別於以前該店一向保留的"文革漫畫"圖案的廣告風格,這個廣告是一個穿著新式"唐裝"的模特兒,站在上海外灘某棟建築物的天台上拍的硬照... 朦朦朧朧的背景是東方明珠塔等上海新式建築...

還記得我去上海的時候,天總是陰的,還下雨... 基本上看不清楚黃浦江對岸到是怎樣的風景... 所以我印象中的上海是灰灰濛濛的... 如果我沒有看錯,那廣告上的上海天空,也是灰濛濛的,背景的景物也拍的不清楚... (現在想起來,好像那是一張黑白照...) 那個感覺就跟我印象中的一樣... 可能就是這個緣故,我就對這幅廣告特別有感覺...

其實這個廣告,跟其他名牌服飾的廣告沒有多大的區別,也不是拍的特別漂亮... 跟中環的廣告叢中一點都不突出... 但我看到那幅廣告後,心裡面就出現一種很奇怪的感覺... 不是開心,也不是傷心... 很淡的哀愁,就像以前語文課文章裡面所描述的"戚戚然"... 心頭上浮現了很多在上海時的回憶... 真的想不到,一幅照片,竟然勝過千言萬語... 第一次有這樣的感覺,真的是好奇妙哦...


回家也有兩個星期了,這幾天一直都很不耐煩... 爸爸媽媽一直在身旁,嚷來嚷去,沒有甚麼自由可言的,心情不是特別好... (媽媽像是保護要人組,我到哪裡,她就跟到哪裡... 每次電話響起,她總要知道是誰打來的,光明正大的偷聽,有時候還要插幾句... 上網時,也要左問右問我跟誰聊天... 每次聊得比較順利,她就會佔用我的房間,我的書桌,我的電插口說要熨衣服... 不讓她管她就會說我在妨礙她... 不是熨衣服,就是說她要我陪她出去吃東西... 出去的時候,也要我到哪裡都要報位置...) 沒有自主權,好鬱悶哦... 走一步路都有人看,真的很不習慣...

沒有自由的我,特別想念在上海的時候... 一個人旅遊的感覺,很自由,很快活... 比北京多一份現代感,比香港少一份擁擠... 今天看到那幅廣告,就更加想念那段無拘無束的日子,那個心情特別好的我... 哦,到底甚麼時候才會回來呢... 甚麼時候,才能在去上海,在一個人旅行呢...

豬年要開開心心!!!

haha, a few days more and then it will be the year of the pig la... 12 years since we pigs are in the spotlight!!! hehe, i am super superstitious... i already got a "tiger" phone strap to lighten the "faan tai sui" effect... it is said that we pigs will get extra emotional and moody this year, and the "tiger" accessory will help soothe our emotional ups and downs... haha, i am a very emotional person already, so i really hope it doesn't get worse...

talking about being superstitious... i flipped through some magazines and they have these "fortune-telling" articles as usual... it is said that pigs will have a rough love life this year (3 out of 3 fortune-tellers said the same thing!!!) hope it is not true... and as for work and school, it will be affected by negative emotions but there will be "expensive people" to help solve the problems... i really hope school is going to get smoother this year... i will work harder than ever, and i hope it will work... i am tired of law... very tired of the so-called justice and morals... but i still need to strive on and work hard...

and as for love... haha, will be too busy with school and maybe work so i don't think i will have time for it... the year of the dog has already loaded me with a lot of memories... and i already have an eventful past... i think this year is gonna be a much more quiet year for me... haha, don't want to get too emotional ma... i still wish that i can be happy with my special someone ("sweet apple", haha)... i want to be loved la... i worked so hard but there's still so much for me to learn... haha, so maybe not this year??

whatever year it is, i really thank the Lord God for all the blessings and protection He has given me, and for all that is to come... i am grateful for everything that happened to me, which strengthened me and help me discover so much about myself... i know that i am so immature and so selfish... i don't know how to think in the place of other people... i hope this year i can do better... i hope the Lord will help me walk a straighter and smoother path of life in all the years to come...

1st week home...

back in macau for a week... the place has become so different since september... new casinos and hotels, new restaurants, new shops... more (expensive) cars, more chinese tourists, more foreigners (tourists and employees of big companies stationed here)... the streets are crowded and the shops are packed... the place is looking more and more like a "metropolis"... im actually finding it a more enjoyable place to live or relax...

been walking through some new shops and there are a lot of things i want to buy... there is this new quiksilver store right in front of grandma's and they have really nice sweaters and zip-up jackets this season... saw a couple of very cute tees but they're for men... giordano is having new year sale and i bought a "lover" jacket which i can wear on dates with my dear chidong... i saw my wallet in tough and its the same price as in beijing!! and i still want that ipod case i saw in prada in september...

well, aside from shopping, life so far has been very relaxing... actually waking up and sleeping at normal times... staying home in the afternoons... taking time to "talk" to my mom... eating dinner and tea with my grandma... it has been good except that my friends all have jobs so i can only see them when they are really tired after work... and some are so busy i dont even get to see them after so long... well, hope i can have enough time here to meet all of my busy friends...

tomorrow will be family day again... first, i can finally go "yum cha"!!!!!! "cha siu bao, pai guet, siu mai, cheung fun... here i come!!" and then for tea, my dad said we will go get "chris patten's favorite egg tart"... and then dinner at the african restaurant in fisherman's wharf... i hope they don't serve insects or i will really faint on the spot...

talking about eating, i have already expected to gain some weight during this vacation... and i think i already did gain a bit fat on my face... i devoured a whole mcdonald's value meal for tea today, finished the sausage egg muffin in a record 1 minute and then ate the whole cup of potato wedges... im so in love with those potato wedges i think im getting those again tomorrow after i finish with the egg tarts... haha, i cant imagine how many kgs of fat and how many pimples i will get in these 20-some days...

and a list of the restaurants (food) i want to go:
1. lord stowe's bakery -- natas (portuguese egg tarts)
2. mcdonald's -- curry pork-chop burger and A LOT OF potato wedges
3. jade garden-- sweet and sour fish
4. "chu kei" -- wonton "yee min"
5. wynn chinese restaurant -- dim sum
6. westin resort -- tea buffet
7. sands grill -- steak and salmon fillet
8. "fei jai kei" -- "ngau jap meen"
9. haagen dazs -- ice-cream fondue
10. hotel lisboa japanese restaurant -- teppenyaki
11. 4-5-6 shanghainese restaurant -- eel and river shrimp
12. "nan hu ming yue" at macau tower -- thousand layer fatty pork
13. antica trattoria or pizzeria toscana -- lasagna
14. la comedie chez vous -- mushroom cheese crepe
15. hotel lisboa bakery -- black forest mousse cake and "egg drops"
16. 7-eleven -- fake shark's fin soup

haha... im gonna get really fat!!!

edit: harry potter 7 will be released july 21... i have 6 months to re-read book 6...